I ''failed'' physics A level the first time.. because it was so easy to retreat deep inside my head and be somewhere (anywhere) instead of a drab classroom.... or even a drab ''home''..
I also was thinking, part of the time, about some boy I had been permitted to talk to one holiday aged 15. The parental units were VERY controlling... I told this to a shrink. He said that was ''very normal''
A mean therapist told me I had hidden things from that shrink.. Such a ''crime''
Having been violated by an abusive GP that hiding was, I think, ''adaptive'' ... and it wasn't even conscious
Grrrrrrrrrrrr......