I wish I had any answers for you. I've been in a funk for more than 10 years now. I'm also in a state where any activity takes more effort than I can muster, so all I can do is go to work and come home, other than work on writing. When all you can do is go to work and go home, time can pretty quickly add up, and suddenly years are passing you by. All the other people in my family in my generation have been getting married, having kids, etc., and I'm still just here, barely hanging on. I've been reading recently a lot on personal autonomy and it seems like a lot of people, myself included, want more autonomy in their lives.