I've not had one in quite some time (thankfully) but last night in t i nearly did.
t likes to do visualizations verging on the edge of hypnosis. but i have told her that her "we're being calm and quiet now" voice scares the s*** out of me. So she hasn't used it in a while and the short visualizations have been good. She's going on vacation so i asked her to make a new tape for me of one... well it went back to the old format and was totally triggering. naturally i didn't tell her i was triggered
Her almost whisper-quiet voice and leading tones freaked me out.
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I could feel my abuser in my ear, whispering to me how it's ok, how i just need to be quiet, need to relax. not to make any sounds, not to move.

i can't write any more