I've felt down and tired for a couple days so i just took it easy. Enjoying my nice clean home tho. Today was the first day this year that it was warm enough for my dog to go out without her coat!

But feeling discouraged about bipolar nonsense in the past, shame about what a mess i am and dread of a future filled with more of these incidents of poor judgement. Like @Blue_Bird i take refuge in sleep. I think @bpcyclist said sleep was once his escape too. As escapes go, sleep is pretty benign. I'm wasting my life but i don't seem to have any better option so there you go.