I don’t get the whole idea of being so into each other like most new couples are in first few months of being together. I mean I understand what attraction is and I experienced that „euphoria” kind of thing inside me when I learnt the other party felt the same but... I feel like I can see through it in some way.

Seeing each other every day? Spending as much time as possible together? Hours of texting or talking and having fun all the time? My brain is like give me a break. No f….g way. I may feel good / really good but I always manage to keep a cool head. Nothing really changes and in some way it bothers me.

I’m aware that there are people out there who may not like it or even feel bad because of me if it comes to such situation. I feel fear when I think about it. Knowing that one day I can meet my dream girl and f…k things up because of my cold attitude