Sometimes I just want to give up. I don't know where to go or what to do with myself. I just want to sleep. I want to find a quiet place away from people and lie down and sleep.

I feel nobody can truly help me. I've tried counseling, medication, reaching out to those I wish I could trust, but I always feel the same or worse.

I want to give up on my counselor, I want to give up on my relationship and my life.

This isn't where I want to be. It hurts. I hurt.

I'm putting in effort, but I feel that I'm not getting anywhere.

My counselor says she won't give up on me. But, I'm not sure she knows how to help me. Her advice or lack thereof is disappointing. I feel so desperate. I need help but I can't seem to find any.

I wish I was rich so I could actually afford help.

And living this way is hard, and even harder when I feel abused just for being who I am. The way society treats those who suffer without visible signs... I've been told to "get over it." People just see your worth based on your income or title.

I know I have a lot to offer. And I know who I want to be, underneath all that weighs down on me.

I'm tired of feeling so awful.