Yes, this is self harm. Do you have a therapist or a friend you trust that you can talk to about this? It is hard to suffer in silence and be alone. You are welcome to post here. Sometimes this board is slow and it takes some time to get responses but eventually you will get responses. I'm sorry you hurt yourself. I wouldn't say there is something wrong with you, I would say that you have a mal-adaptive coping mechanism. The good thing is you can learn other ways of coping that will help you not hurt yourself, if you want to. You aren't alone. HUGS If wanted, Kit