I think how you presented your story was very tactful and respectful considering the abuse you endured. It takes a strong person to admit all this while still practicing mindfulness, as to not potentially offend anyone here.. and perhaps, remain loyal to your roots, despite it.

I have a bittersweet relationship with my half culture. I learned to focus on it's strengths and beauty because it allows me to find some inner peace. It was a difficult process and my story is very much different than yours.

I don't have advice and maybe I have no reason to reply to your post. I just really liked how well spoken and sensitive you were with sharing this.

Stay strong!