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"Fogginess" and "dreamstate" are signs of dissociation. And seeing/hearing things is a form of delusion/hallucination. Some conditions which include these symptoms as a primary focus, include Schizotypal conditions, Bipolar, and a few others.
HOWEVER one thing you touched base on was the ability to help people and know their thoughts and feelings. This is a form of empathy, which some cultures view as a form of shamanistic magic.
In reality, Empaths are simply very caring people who are easily able to understand and share the experiences and emotions of those around them - like being able to cry with a movie character, but instead you're connecting to real people.
This is a good thing. You have the potential to be a healer, more so possibly because you know how it feels to endure.
It is possible that this is why you were drawn to someone who later abused you. People with a naturally kind, calm, and healing vibe will usually attract the broken, and instead of seeing the flaws in them, you see the people they are trying to become and....you try to help. Later on, they take advantage of your kindness and hurt you.
This is where the memory troubles kick in. You have, at this point, learned that you love helping people (even if you don't always love people) and you can very easily get tangled up in your emotions and get hurt. Your mind begins to associate your true nature with your worst fears and circumstances where you were once kind begin to look like threats you did not notice before. As a protective measure, your mind blocks those memories, and begins to block memories that are similar.
So you begin to withdraw who you are, taper it down, in order to protect yourself.
But you're still an Empath who hates to see people suffer.
So what happens? Your heightened awareness of others begins to control your subconscious. You are connecting to people in your subconscious mind because you forbade your conscious mind from putting you in danger again.
And what is the result of excess strain on your mental and emotional state?
Reading people and a heightened spirituality
Your subconscious mind is trying to reach out to people - possibly people you are worried about - and is reading body language your conscious mind is not yet aware of, and giving you a spiritual "connection" to how they are feeling or what's on their mind.
Something that can help:
1. Therapy for your trauma, to remove the emotional block
2. Compartmentalization of your emotions - separate them from your logical train of thought. Each time you have an unexpected emotional response to a situation, quickly look around and see what everyone else is doing, or how they are reacting. Look at yourself from their perspective and DECIDE IF YOUR EMOTIONAL RESPONSE IS A REASONABLE RESPONSE TO THE SITUATION and then DECIDE ON A MORE APPROPRIATE RESPONSE BASED ON YOUR SURROUNDING EVIDENCE.
3. If you can't "Spock it" as I say, where you are unable to control your emotional response with a logical evaluation of the situation, then
4. Meditate to increase self-control over your emotions. You cannot allow your emotions to dictate your decisions, especially if there could be lifelong consequences.
You are an Empath. Learn how to control it, and you can use it to help even more people in your life. But you can't do it if you don't first heal yourself.
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"I know you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant."
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