Sometimes, while in different groups, we change how we are acting in order to fit in better with each group.
As a result, everyone knows us a certain way which is slightly different from everyone else. All the common factors are there - say, if you love Bananas but hate Pears, every version of you would also love/hate those things.
But let's say....you experienced a trauma while using a specific persona and now you don't want to use that persona anymore - but there's that one common factor that all of them share. That one factor makes you think of the traumatised persona even while you're with a different group acting a different way.
Eventually, your trauma crosses platforms to the other personas, and you keep switching between them, trying to get back to the real you - but that common factor jumps in again, and being you doesn't feel right anymore.
What can you do? You're not DID but you also can't stop shifting between personalities.
The biggest thing you must realize: Every one of those personas is a different part of you. For some reason, you've compartmentalized different aspects of your personality, maybe as a protective measure to conceal the traumatic memory or event (most brains use repression, but people are unique).
FIND THE COMMON FACTOR
Once you find the common factor, you can isolate the trigger that causes you to jump personas, and you can find the root cause of the initial trauma.
...in theory, anyway.
Good luck!
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