Well it sounds to me like you’re going thru a really tough time right now. But try to see it as temporary. It helps to try to see a light at the end of the tunnel. All I can see is a can totally relate with you. I’m not sure if you have children or not. I am a mother of three and rarely but sometimes I feel the way you do. And children give you a big sense of worth, hope, & courage to fight thru whatever feelings you may be going thru.
What do you have in your life rights now at this moment that gives you courage and hope?
Maybe a pet or a close family member.
Think about how they would feel if you suddenly were not in their lives?