After a long therapeutic process I was doing well enough to try and finally look for a job. It was my first job after graduating and being on a forced hiatus due to my deteriorating mental health. It was a part time job in a shoe shop. I only worked there for 1 month and 1 week before Coronavirus spred out in Italy. I was left at home and started to be in quarantine as anyone else. I was just an intern but I was relying on that money to move to England as soon as possible. I couldnt handle a full time job due to my anxiety and I was very sensitive to critiques coming from my manager. But I was making my way through it. I loved being around customers and received lots of compliments.

Now Ive just been told that once the shop will reopen there might be some layoffs. And Im sure that being an intern the person that will be sacked will be me.

I worked so hard to get this job, I dont want to go back to doing nothing apart from wallowing in my depression and anxiety. I feel like all my improvements were in vain and now I will once more have to explain why I have a gap in my curriculum to possible future employers. Not to mention that it will take at least 6 months to find another job because the economy is doing so bad that no one will hire me now.

I feel so down and cant push myself to do anything. I was enjoying my hobbies during this quarantine but now I feel like I dont want to do anything at all. I am scared that I might go back to how I felt when I was at home, jobless and depressed. My therapist said we will discuss it but I dont know what she might say that will make it better. Due to the virus my plan of moving to England will also be postponed and that was the only real goal I had that I know will make me feel happy.

Sorry I just wanted to share my experience and Im sure many of you are going through the same situation now