Part of this I learned after psychosis....during that time I thought I knew who the devil was and he needed to be put into jail by being framed for a crime. He was someone I knew that’s had moved away....perfectly nice guy. Because of my hallucinations and delusions I thought he did a lot of stuff he never did.
After my psychosis I decided that I really had no personal way of knowing what was true or not. That I would leave this kind of thing to the police or military and not myself. Sure I could donate to the police fund but no vigilante stuff.
I suppose that before psychosis if you had asked about going back in time and killing Hitler I would have. With my current state I would not. I suppose with a propensity for delusions I honestly don’t trust my own mind and therefore depend on society and social structure.
Psychosis has a way of amplifying good vs evil battles to strictly black and white....there is no grey. It’s a simpler mindset almost like that of a child. This is not meant to be offensive....your mind may be different than mine but I know you’ve experienced psychosis which is why I mentioned how my thoughts were skewed during that time.
I had always been a rigid thinker before psychosis and during psychosis that quality was amplified. But realizing you don’t have the full picture for anyone or that it could be wrong can change you. So for me, I ask what if I’m wrong? If my mind can change a stoplight from green to red then it can change a person’s character as well. As long as you hold to the conviction that there’s no way you’re wrong about a person you’ll feel a need to act, but if other people are seeing this too, it will be dealt with.
What are the odds that you’re the only one that can help?
Let’s put it this way, if you’re connecting with other people and have a group action, whether that’s through donation or volunteering you’re probably OK but if you’re trying to change the world as a one man show well it could be the psychosis whether you’re right about it or not. Hopefully that makes sense.