Well, it's almost as if I can't make a decision. I feel paralyzed with doubt about this. I cannot evaluate who would be a better fit. I mean, I feel like I cannot even make decisions for myself. No matter what others tell me, I can't make decisions.

I get this attitude from my parents, too, that they cannot make decisions for me. I know they're right; it seems ridiculous to say, but sometimes I want others to make decisions for me.