Background: I was sexually assaulted 5 years ago.

I was told by a therapist that I have PTSD (for certain) last year.

Today, I walked into the police station after finding old texts from my rapist. There's a chance to reopen the case. I just have to go through my iCloud and see if I can get an image of them showing that they're from him.
If I can't find them, then I have to face the pain of knowing he got away with it. If I do, I have to see him.

I wasn't prepared for the stab of pain and rush of emotions/memory. I probably cried for two hours after. It's just as painful as it was back then.

It's been 5 years. Does PTSD ever get better? I do have a hard time remembering everything. Is there a way to help that?

I'm so anxious now that I know I could see him again. That'll be a YUGE trigger. Even worse, it'll be in front of a jury.

I have no idea what to do.