It has been a while since I last posted on here. No real changes have happened in my life. I have seen my daughter perhaps a few times, but not enough time. I feel like I am losing time with her and I feel that I am losing her.

Meanwhile, in this drama, we have this global pandemic that has literally tested my feelings of isolation. Before, I could go somewhere if I felt lonely and surround myself with human beings. Now, I suffer in silence. My therapist can only do phone calls and they are not really helping me.

In the midst of all this negativity, I am trying to find a suitable partner to date. Yes, I know we are in a global pandemic, but I feel I need some light in my life. Yet, again I have had my profile on several websites, and no messages. Perhaps I am not ready yet and if I did meet someone, I may have too much baggage.

I am a broken man just trying to find some solace in the world. I wish I could see my daughter more often. I wish my heart wouldn't get stomped on so much. Having someone to come home to would be so nice, someone to share my life.

I have a golden heart and a few of my friends state that I deserve what I desire. It is mind boggling to me the enigma of the online dating world. I can't believe that I am so repulsive as to not merit a response from any woman. But, that is where my situation lies, and I sit and float on my raft on this wild ocean.

So alone, that I want to scream I need a hug. I need compassion and I need human touch.
--sarc