Have you tried doing like Julia Cameron's book "The Artist's Way"? It was a big thing back in the 80s or 90s.

Also, something that i have realized for myself - i have cut myself a LOT of slack in the past. I personally need to be more honorable. Esp now with the pandemic. And now that i dont have my parents harassing me. Or work. I need to step up. Or maybe that comes with being able to do better BECAUSE im not being harassed. Idk. Chicken or the egg. I have made some hard choices about not being a doormat.