Hey Gomezaddams51,

I am sorry you feel like that.
Hopefully this site here will help you aswell.
Maybe it already helps you when you read that you're not alone?
You aren't the only one that makes a wrong decision or fails at something. Had my fair share of those,too. And i also have to... work on/with the consequences. so don't be afraid of sharing everything you want to get off your chest.
You already made a big step in joining and posting here. So congrats for that 🥳
Wish you the best