I don't know. I woke up this morning feeling so bad. But I don't know why exactly, I feel guilt, yeah, on top of it so I started thinking of allowing myself to just feel...but I wonder how fully I can let go and feel due to the persistent resistance. Then I started thinking it feels so strong, this resistance...is it a survival coping mechanism?
I'm always feeling guilt for feeling.
I do feel angsty because of trying to be somebody for the sake of my surroundings. 'Authenticity.'
I have a lot of healing to do.

I hope you're all having a good morning.

Life is so hard sometimes. I hope it gets better for us all.