I guess it comes from feeling inadequate and wishing I had had the personal strength to get to where I wish I was in life, now. I feel my past still weighs on me and I give that pain my energy so that I can heal and be in this very moment. My focus has been on my past, I am trying to heal. So I guess I tend to forget all people have had unique circumstances and it isn't productive for any of us to compare ourselves to others, as we cannot fully comprehend anyone else - I even have a vague understanding of myself.