Hey Beth, I just wish that I knew how to help you. thank you for thinking of me. Beth I consume my most favorite foods. anything you could think of, bagels, donuts, mcflurries, dbl chsburgers, PB and J sandwiches, granola bars, beth you name it, it is crammed in my face and then gone 5 minutes later. Gone, all of it. I go to the gym 6 days a week. but when i get home i am drained, when i wake up in the morning i tell myself that I am not going to throw up today but i still do it. I am soo sick and tired of it all. I just wish i could stop. I have gotten sooooo much help in the past, I am still paying for the help that didnt help. Beth you are not screwed up. dont think like that.I have been adicted to all laxiess, diet pills you name it I took it. I know how you feel and it does suck. I am here to chat anytime. your not alone.