I didn't crawl out of beds until 5 pm. I was curled up in a ball wishing I am able to cry [trigger] maybe dead [\trigger]. I don't have the energy to put towards anything but don't care. I feel like such a screw up not getting the curriculum out on time. enough to beat myself up about it but not enough to work on it. I can't decide if I'm painfully empty or just numb or if this is "normal". I'm nauseous. feel like I'm about to cry. I know this is temporary maybe tomorrow will feel better. Yesterday I was fine. My nephew got into a bad accident but nothing is broken and he's home. I want to feel better even temporarily and I know how to but I can't. IDK,