I think right now the only thing you need to focus on is staying physically healthy from this damn Plague and forcing yourself to be present in your life.. All the years I have known you.. this " Divorce talk" bubbles up when you are unwell. When you are able to capture some stability you say you cant imagine not being married and together..

My advice? Just be present and take care of you and your family... Maybe you need to stop over thinking the whole T and Pdoc stuff and just Float.. Your trying to swim up stream in a raging white water river and your missing 3 fins... Focus on one thing you can do as a family tomorrow. Watch a favorite movie together, Cook an enjoyable meal. Play a board game, Just do something together.. Life is scary right now , Enjoy this time with family