Girls, thank you for your replies.

When I was a kid and then, a teenager, my consolation was that one day when I grew, I would get being treat in a different way, I would receive all the affection I’m able to give.
But as you and others as Lady or Dowandlonely pointed out, there’s a powerful strength of attraction towards what it seems familiar to us.

I think we can use whatever circumstance to mature and learn, so as you say, Divine, recognising a pattern is an important achievement but then, decision-making must be applied. And, at this point in my life, I’m not ready to put up with certain behaviours. I have this very clear.
And of course, I’m not gonna give the same answer that it was, refuging myself and trying to console myself waiting for better times come.

I have tried to talk to him about this before. I know I’m not gonna change a person but we will have to find the way to understand each other or we will have to go our own way.
What I have had so far, maybe it was the only one I could face to or have to, but now, I’m not this weak butterfly anymore.

A side note: I already made the decision to not have babies so I did my own contribution to the planet.