For me even to make a baby step its hell of a challenge. This long days, nothing to do, it really gets to me how messed my life is and I feel like I want someone to fix it for me. I dont know if its fixable at all.. I feel like its me vs world.


Im trying to see myself as a normal person with no social issues, having friends, having phone calls with them or family, simple conversations.. but its like on another level that I cant possibly be promoted to.

Worst part is I would love to be normal but i cant.

Its horrible who I become and nobody else sees that.