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Old May 02, 2020, 03:16 PM
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I feel anxiety because i have to take my dog for her nail trim tomorrow. The groomers are open on a limited basis with safety precautions due to the virus. I didn't feel that i could ask my neighbor to drive us. I didn't want to put her in that position, having to decide between helping us and risking her health. So i'm going to cab it which ramps up the anxiety as sometimes the drivers are grouchy about dogs. I've ordered my cab and specified that i will be travelling with a dog but still sometimes i'll get a real Oscar-the-Grouch.

If it's anything other than an ordeal i will be surprised. Our appointment is at 4:00pm. Wish us luck!

I've felt down the past few days. The few nudges i was feeling towards hypomania have stopped. I feel really weak insecure lonely. I know everyone is suffering because of the lockdown. I sure want to make an effort to have more of a life when it's over. All this time to reflect leaves me realizing how empty my life is. I did what i could by going in my Scrabble club's online meeting on Wednesday but it's not very interactive, we just play and that's that. I tried calling in to my IRL support group's warm-line but it didn't satisfy.

Not sure if i can carry on. Memories of the past attacking me. Keeping the crisis line in mind.
I am no expert, but I do think sitting around the house, as I have been doing, is bad for my brain. Bad for rumination, especially. Bad for my psychosis. Maybe going for the dog appt. will help you.I hope it does. Taking action, any action, seems to help me some. Baking, cleaning, writing, a walk, looking at flowers or dogs or happy kids. Whatever. Anything but sitting around.


Sending strength and support. Maybe try to go do some small activity.
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