Well, he finally asked me out for this week. I did not invite myself. I agreed to meet him. I don't know where this is going. He is ok. He likes me, I believe. And, I feel ok about him. He talked the whole time we met last time. He is the type that wants to be the center of attention. I don't mind because I am the opposite. He is average looking but big. He is intelligent and talkative. He is very wealthy and likes to talk about his acquisitions. He is down-to-earth though. I do realize he had a relatively easy life. He does have compassion for those he likes. He is sending money to those in Thailand because they used to help him there and they lost their jobs because of the corona virus situation. Thus, he may not be compassionate towards people with mental illness because some of them act strangely. He does have a heart for the needy. I must say he is not that bad of a person. I can't turn him down just because of his stance on mental illness. I will see him again and listen to what he says and does.


I had another guy who had a stroke and who pretended to be my friend. He then started asking for naked pictures and for sex. I want sex with you in the bathtub he kept saying. He said theses things after about a year of talking with him and meeting him a few times. I was turned off. I blocked him. I don't want to repeat this incident again. Men usually want sex although they may act like friends initially. I learned from him that men may say they would like to be friends but their ulterior motive is that they are interested in sex too with women they befriend. He had compassion for the mentally ill. But, we were not compatible.

The majority of men I meet don't accept others with mental illness and the ones that do have a disability or have some chronic illness. I am not in the position to be so understanding either of other's problems. I do understand why others with no illnesses don't like people with mental illness. They have not experienced it and they have no clue. But, it is not my business to be a spokesperson for the mentally ill. It is my business to take care of myself and that is about it.


I do like him except for his remark about the mentally ill. My parents are the same way and have no compassion for the mentally ill. They avoid them because of me. Thus, I understand how others feel about mental illness. I can't say my parents are all that bad, they are not. I am grateful towards them for helping me. People's views about the mentally ill are not always positive although they may not be bad people. However, as I said before the man with the stroke was receptive about mental illness, but was not for me.


People who say they are understanding about mental illness usually have experience with it or know friends/family members with it. The former is more common, meaning they have had experience with it. I hate to say this, but I prefer people who are not mentally ill either. I had a mentally ill ex. He was a nightmare!! As a result, I don't advertise my illness to anybody anymore. And, my situation has been going well so far. I have taken it upon myself to be responsible and go to the doctor and take my medication. And, as long as I take care of myself, I don't need to advertise myself as mentally ill.

My mental illness does not define me or my life now!