Thanks, Rain. After he was taken away late Thurs eve, I started catching up on rest. Today (Sat) was the beginning of me not feeling awful tired. I went to Home Depot to pick up a new shower chair I had ordered. At "curbside pick-up" a young guy put it in the back seat of my car for me. I pulled away and started crying, wondering if I'll ever get to use it.

I an awfully glad he's at the VA getting what I believe is very good care. They have a sitter constantly with him because he's confused. I did talk to him on tbe phone today. He sounded pretty good. Still kind of confused.

It feels empty in the apartment now alone. But it is soooo good to get off the hampster wheel for a break. My right arm is still very sore. But I want to get the kitchen cleaned.

Me time is a good idea. After the kitchen, I want to shower and then get cozy. I'll have some soup. I'll put a warm heating pad on my arm and look for a movie. I'll tell mysekf to just relax.

It means a lot that someone posted this advice above. I had been sitting here crying. But now I'll try to be nice to myself. One of my sisters has been phoning and being a very good friend. I live far from family.

I hope the hospital doesn't call me to come get him tomorrow. I'm not ready. I can't handle it tomorrow. The newest thing is that he can't stand. We have a "lift," but we've not used it yet.

Well . . . kitchen . . . then, take care of me and my arm.

Thank you, friends, for checking in. I've been close to a breakdown. COVID has messed up my options very badly. Like the rest if the world, I just have to do the best I can. Good night all.