I think the mistake I made was telling him in an E-MAIL the things I can't talk about in session. I'm realizing that if I can't talk about it in session, I probably shouldn't e-mail it to him, because, then it will come up in SESSION. Duh!

I wish I could go and take it back. I hate this because I love him, and I loved feeling safe with him, and I hate having this desire to never, ever, ever see him again. I'm so sad.

I feel like I screwed up, big time.