Please excuse me for ranting but I am so angry and hurt right now it's not even funny..

I make plans with my boyfriend to watch some movies together we picked out special for Valentines Day night.. In between the two, I get up to run and go pee.. I finish going potty to find him on his computer talking about video games to some friend..

This hurts me because the night was supposed to be about us.. Valentines Day only comes once a year and I tell him it hurts.. He apologizes and says he's coming right out.. then CONTINUES TYPING to the guy..

He justifies it by saying the guy had just asked him a question and he was in answering it really quickly.. Then he goes off on me telling me I'm going on a drama trip and that I'm a control freak because I end up feeling so hurt that I no longer want to watch anything and just want to go to bed..

How hard is it for him to understand that tonight was *supposed* to be our special night?? How hard would it have been for him to wait until later to message the guy back or to tell the guy that he was spending tonight with me and he'd talk to him about it later??

I went through so much trouble doing things for him for Valentines Day.. I made him homemade chocolates, picked him up special flavored coffees like he enjoys and a special mug to go with it.. I got him candles and special stuff for a sexy bath.. all types of sweet little gifts - even gifts for his cat..

I understood things were tight for him right now.. I even paid for the movies that we were going to watch together.. all I had wanted was for him to watch them with me.. for us to have a special night together.. just him and me.. and I can't even go to the bathroom without him running onto his computer to chat with friends about video games.. on what was supposed to be a special night for us..

and then he blames me for ruining it because it hurt me..

I give up.. I ended it with him.. I can't handle the way he makes me feel anymore.. he hurts me so often that each time he makes me cry, I just want to run away from him.. just run and not stop just so he can't hurt me anymore..

I'm sorry for ranting here.. just so frustrated and hurt.. had been looking forward to tonight with him.. and obviously him talking on the computer about video games meant more than anything I had planned.. I just don't understand why all of it couldn't have waited.. This wasn't just any other night.. we were celebrating Valentines Day together..