I guess I meant I could never further myself. I would apply at all the good places, but would always lose out to someone from Le Corden Bleu. I always got stuck in these crappy restaurant and cafeteria jobs where I was always stuck on the grill. Most of the stuff I already knew or could've learned on my own.

With all of the stuff that has happened (losing a friend, my grandmother, school, among all of the other crap and s***ty hand I've dealt the last couple of years), maybe going out of town for school might do me some good. I'd have to have a roommate, which can't be worse than living with my friend and his family, although things have gotten better and quieted down since I read them the riot act a few months ago.