AzulOscuro,

Thanks for responding! I know I may not be ready for a relationship, as I am a chaotic mess. Perhaps my post was meant to serve as a source to vent. I am frustrated.
What prevents me from having many friends is that I have trouble trusting people. This is from the abuse I suffered as a child. I have a hard time trusting people and now since my pending divorce, this has been amplified a thousandfold.

--sarc