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May 04, 2020, 10:17 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2014
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Originally Posted by MissUdy
Hi, I was wondering if anyone else feels they can’t make very good connections with people. I know people with traumatic pasts can grow up not sharing their vulnerabilities with people, so they don’t have many real friends. This was true for me, but I feel like I have been very vulnerable and trusting for at least the last few years since starting therapy. Admittedly most people in my life before were men who wanted something from me, and not friends although I did think of them as friends.
Now, in lockdown, everyone I spent time with has disappeared. I understand we can’t physically see each other, but no one has even sent me a message at all. I thought maybe they could be a little worried about me working in a hospital through all this, Or being alone, but nothing. I sent a message to a few people some days ago, but they haven’t even read them. What is wrong with me?
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For a long time I felt this way too, because of my trauma I felt so different and abnormal, and I didn't even know that's what it was. The last few years though, as I've worked through my trauma, I've been able to build real, close, intimate friendships, and part of that was being authentic that I had a violent childhood and have cPTSD. Just admitting it and being open about it helped me to develop close relationships with people.
It is hard though. We think we are abnormal or broken and don't know how to relate to normies...But we can. It just takes work and authenticity.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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