I just did it again, puked up some noodles and cookies about 2 seconds ago. I've been trying to recover, I can usually go a week without puking and then i slip again but i've been puking more in the past 2 days lately. I told my bf about this a long time ago and hes been supportive but i guess the way i look and act and feel has been scaring him so he told his mom about me being bulimic. shes a great woman and very smart, and i hope she will help me but i am so scared to talk about this to someone who can actually do something about my condition. as in, they might want me to get proffessional help. but im just so scared to get it. half the time i feel like i dont even have a problem, but lets face it i've been at this for exactly a year now. i've clogged my bathroom sink, im white all the time, depressed a lot, i dont like going places sometimes just because i hate how pudgy i feel, my throats the shits, and my sex drive is decreasing. i need help i just can't seem to reach out and grab it. i still wanna keep losing weight so bad. someone help!! i dont know what to do...