Hello I realy need Help. I got these thoughts for like 4 to 5 months. I never had a crush on a woman (i am a female) I only felt into boys and never questioned my sexuality. When Chrismas started , i started to have groinal responses about womans. They werent nice. On New Year, i watched youtube, and then my thoughts drived me mad. THEN BOOOOM and i had many more intusive thoughts.I started with the fear of being Lesbian or Bi. I started to think about the time around christmas, my past and Everything. I started Porn in a very young age. I had so many thoughts specialy about memories and thoughts in general. I have all the Hocd symptoms.i check ,reasure ,question, avoid, review events , and have extreme anxiety. I worried about being in denial and other things like that. Now i dont feel myself anymore I can be happy and straight and then sad and doubting. My doubt is going so far, that i dont fear anymore. I just feel Bi. Many people said to accept the thoughts . So i tried to accept that i could be Bi. It kinda stops my thoughts but makes me feel the same every 5 minutes after. I DONT WANT TO BE BI. Today i woke up and it felt like i competely turned Bi. All my thoughts, memories, samesex stuff i watched and time at christmas must be the proof that i am. Many people also say: ohh its just puberty, you will know what you like, ohh this is just because you are bi. But these answers give me a lot of anxiety. I stopped fighting the thoughts because im tired of it. But the more they feel real. In the beginning of hocd i knew i was straight but know i dont. In my case so many things feel different then from the others : i am still young and blabla. It feels like i could crush on a girl the next days or years and i dont want that, but it feels like i want it. Is this hocd? Is it normal for heterosexuals, to be aroused by samesexporn? Or is it just a dumb stage of knowing myself? (Hopeful not)sorry for bad english