Thank you, Kim. I know last night I went to the store and bought lots of donuts...got home ( I wanted to get rid of the Soy Milk I had because the new brand was 65 calories less per serving and I wanted to get rid of the bananas because I was drinking Grapefruit Juice) so I get home ate on the bananas with soy milk and the donuts in between....cramming my flippin face. I was so full I couldn't finish the glass of soy milk or finish the donuts...I made myself eat the frosting. Then dumped the rest down the garbage disposal with the soy and the last banana. My stomach couldn't take any more... Than I ran to the bath room and purged it all. Why did I go to the store intentionally planning to do this and why couldn't I just throw the food away instead of forcing myself to eat and purge. Why..I just don't get it. Today I had better self control and I went to the gym for 3 hours. Sorry to ramble on. all I know is that it is odd behaviour, but I can't control it. I wish you luck for today Chitsy as you begin with new ambition. Thanks for listening. - beth