ty troy, bj, and skeksi

yeah - i'm not gonna listen to the tape =( which bums me out since t is gone for 2 weeks. i know i do need to tell her that i have a hard time stopping her when i'm triggered. i just didn't want that to happen before she left.
had another mini flashback tonight =( this always happens when t leaves. hate it.

am being safe. thanks. maybe this is why md started me on meds this time when she's never chosen to do so before. maybe i'm glad she did.