Well...I think mania is creeping in. My husband told me today he is worried. I haven’t been sleeping. Last night I went to sleep at 1, woke up at 2 and took an almost hour long shower. Then I tried until probably around 7:30 or so to sleep until I finally succumbed and then woke up for the day about 2 hours later. I haven’t stopped going all day and my mind is racing. And, I just realized I spent almost $100 at Kohl’s online which is a big deal right now because my husband’s crew still doesn’t have a start day and he’s on unemployment. Shew. It’s 2:30. I’m going to try again to sleep and hopefully will get more tonight. I have to be up at 8:30 in the morning because one of my kiddos has an appointment with his resource teacher.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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