Last Friday two of my best friends told me they were avoiding my calls and didn't want to talk to me anymore because I called them too often when I was struggling to stay alive and not cut. Well, to say the least, I cut yesterday over all of this. I have 3 people that I call when I'm emotionally in trouble...they even said if I was having a rough time to call them...now they're turning their backs to me. I have no one now. My final support doesn't have a phone anymore so I'm left in the cold to cope all alone. I don't do well when I'm coping all alone.

So what if I get really bad at night and need someone to talk to. No matter how many times these friends needed me, I was there! I have never turned my back away from them when they needed someone! I feel so abandoned right now and it's eating me up.

What should I do?