I can't stop obsessing. I'm obsessing about obsessing. I know this is wrong, I know I should be able to break my obsession loop, but I just can't. I've actually decided from tonight alone that I can't take this anymore, so I've decided (after swearing for years I would never touch them) to go on an SSRI to help with the Obsessions and hopefully the panic disorder too.

I think I'm going to follow the advice my psychology professor gives to his patients with generalized anxiety: "You're obviously not worrying enough, so I think you should take at least an hour every day and just sit down and worry. Make sure not to do anything else. Just focus all your attention on worrying." Because you know what? It really does help!

I just wonder if it will help when you're already obsessing about obsessing? lol.