I hear you. I figured I must not be feeing alone with this. I am very sorry that your husband takes out his anger on you. You don't deserve that. Everyone just wants love.

My husband showed very little of this before marriage, but there were some inklings. When it did happen before we married, I told him "I will only marry you on the condition that you never raise your voice at me". And he promised he would not. Then things were fine with us.

However, then we fought on our wedding morning, and just beforehand - again, initiated by him raising his voice at me. I was thinking on our wedding day, and in the several days before, that this was a BIG mistake, but I didn't back out because I felt it as far too late (again, more complications causing me to hesitate and still move forward).

A couple of times during our marriage, during the troubled times, I have wondered what would have happened had I backed away at the first red flag warning sign, whom I may have met instead, and where I'd be today. But I know those are pointless thoughts that lead to nowhere.

I also want to reiterate here: that for the past six months prior to Friday, I had been feeling happy and our relationship was relatively stable. He was his loving, endearing and affectionate self, and fighting was at a real minimum. When we did argue, he didn't yell. I was feeling very hopeful and positive about our relationship. Then WHAM! The sh-it hits the fan again.