Imma start by saying I'm not diagnosed with anything.

Im not the best at wording myself so apologies in advanced for any weird *** sentences and what not.

I don't think I have an eating disorder but Im definitely not mentally healthy. I have heavy body image issues and will admit that, yes, I am fat. But I pretty much go through thesw cycles of eating everything without care and then suddenly being hit with the strong urge to count calories and restrict my eating. This isn't daily but it is a steady cycle. I dont exercise since I
hate thinking about my body and feel too embarrassed to even try. I never weigh myself cause that just leads to me self harming. I have no will power to keep an actual diet sincw depression makes it hard to actually get out of bed and do any actual cooking.

I feel bad going ans wasting a therapists time but I wanna know if anyone relates or has tips on what to do about this.