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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
Yesterday was rough.
I did not do either of those things, thankfully. I don’t know what I’ll do today. Just try to stay in bed again. I finally got some good sleep. Just a couple of bad dreams. Self harm dream was just about instruments, no graphic images.
Today I am not as desperate so far but I still want to do those things. I’m hurting so bad. I know it’s just depression. I don’t have any reason to go through with anything.
My therapist told me to call my local PHP/IOP which is still running virtually. I did and I have an intake on Friday. I don’t know what else to do besides go to the hospital. I’m so desperate. But I don’t want to do that because of covid. So I’m just trying to hold on until I get some new medication or the lamictal starts to work.
Hugs to everyone! |
I'm glad to read that you didn't hurt yourself yesterday, wildflowerchild. Please take good care today. It's good that you have an intake for the IOP and that you're reaching out for more intensive help. I hope it doesn't come to the hospital for you, but really that would be a far better option than many other things.
I don't know how it is in your part of the state, but where I am the sky is blue and I hear the birds singing. I try to share a bit in their delight, even though so many other things seem difficult. There is that sweet world out there happy to wrap its arms around us.
