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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
Yesterday was rough.
I did not do either of those things, thankfully. I don’t know what I’ll do today. Just try to stay in bed again. I finally got some good sleep. Just a couple of bad dreams. Self harm dream was just about instruments, no graphic images.
Today I am not as desperate so far but I still want to do those things. I’m hurting so bad. I know it’s just depression. I don’t have any reason to go through with anything.
My therapist told me to call my local PHP/IOP which is still running virtually. I did and I have an intake on Friday. I don’t know what else to do besides go to the hospital. I’m so desperate. But I don’t want to do that because of covid. So I’m just trying to hold on until I get some new medication or the lamictal starts to work.
Hugs to everyone! |
My pdoc is in the midst of semi-telling me I am going IP again if I do not turn around fairly speedily. I wonder if you might ought to consider doing that just for a little bit. ?? They will keep you safe and hopefully, could stabilize things for you. Just a thought.
I have been there too often, I really, really feel for you, wildflowerchild. Attempts can be really, really, really terrible. I have two. Awful. Please take care of yourself. Please consider the hospital. For me, the truth is, when I need it, I am more than willing to go. More than willing. There is support there, usually.
Hugs and strength and peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!