I see. It takes a while to build up some coping skills, but here are some suggestions for distractions and coping skills: take a shower, go for a walk, go for a run, go for a hike, listen to music, dance, bake a cake or cookies, play a video game, mow the lawn, text a friend, call a friend, write an old fashioned letter and mail it, study a language on duolingo, read a book, listen to a podcast, go to a NAMI group (they have online groups right now), call a hotline, text a warm line, go to the grocery store buy food and donate it to a food pantry, find an accountability partner so when you feel like hurting yourself you can go to them and have them support you, take five deep breaths from your belly, do some yoga, count to 500, color a picture, draw a picture, paint a picture, do air guitar, draw on yourself with red marker, hold ice in your hand, snap a rubber band against your wrist when you feel like hurting yourself (just not too hard, you don't want bruises!), write here on psych central, play with silly putty or play doh, listen to an audio book, knit a scarf, remember something you used to enjoy doing as a kid and do it again now...these are just some ideas. I hope your therapist will help you with a crisis plan. If they don't bring it up, you can bring it up. I'm glad you started therapy, that is a really big step. Great job taking care of yourself that way. HUGS Kit