He told me how happy he is just last week, before he blew up at me in rage. He tells me fairly frequently that he loves me soo much, that he cannot live without me, and that he would be lost without me. These are his words.

I will find the right time. It's our anniversary and his dad is in the hospital sick, so obviously not any time soon would be appropriate. I am sure I will continue to feel depressed over the next coming weeks, so I am sure he will pull it out of me at some stage. I don't feel like approaching him and opening up to him. I feel like closing myself off. His outrageous behavior has effected me in this way. He can figure it out for himself that something is wrong. I am going to shut down and shut myself off.