Christina, I just saw this thread. What you and your husband are going through must be stressful beyond belief. I am so sorry you are both suffering so profoundly. Across the world, through the internet, I am too far to be of any practical help to you, but I promise you will both be with me in my thoughts and meditations. You amaze me with your resilience but I know. even the strongest can break. Don't forget to look after yourself as best you can. I hope things improve fast. x