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puzzclar
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May 08, 2020 at 11:52 AM
I have been approaching another crisis. And i want to hide from what I feel. IS that possible??? Sooner or later it will catch up to me.
Possible trigger:
yesterday's session with T, did NOT go well. the ending sucked. He would not let me not answer the question of are you safe. I told him I was physically safe, just not mentally. He wanted a yes or a no... I was indifferent. I am mad at him for trying to get past my defenses.
I do need to call today, but I dON"T want too!!! So much of this is hard to go through but I Have an important test to do to discover what is wrong with my digestive system. I do NOT want to miss that.
I need to call him and do a check in but I don't want to slip up and say yes I do want what I can't have. I don't want to know his reaction. Most likely it would be the hospital. and RIght now is not the time. I am almost done with my quarter in school. Even if it is triggering to do. I'll pass and I guess that is all it matters.
I hate my life.
I hate my life.
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