Yeah, like I went to the grocery store yesterday and seeing all the people in masks (and I was wearing a mask and gloves) all of sudden hit me as so surreal...like a horror movie. I came back to my apartment and while trying to bring my groceries in the door slammed on my fingers. I never realized what a heavy door it was. I just burst out crying and ran to the sink to run cold water over my fingers. I was sobbing. And I am NOT a crier. I think I was just sobbing about EVERYTHING. You know, all the stress of the situation. And I was already pretty stressed out before Covid 19. I have extremely difficult money problems.


I decided to go out more...but maybe away from people wearing masks and gloves. We have a lot of hiking areas where I live and our gov did not close any parks because where I live outdoor hiking is very important to people.

Yesterday I realized I am a lot more stressed and depressed than I realized.


I started to listen to a lot more music and that has helped. Music calms me. I have also been sleeping more. Usually I sleep 8 hours like clockwork. Last night I slept 12 hours. I decided not to worry about it.

What I DON'T do is use any unhealthy coping means such as alcohol or drugs, or junk food. I also stopped watching detective shows and you know, scary shows, in general, because they were negatively affecting me. Now I watch silly, funny stuff only.