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The_little_didgee · 07:52 PM

Dechan thank you so much for replying. I really appreciate it.

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Yeah, like I went to the grocery store yesterday and seeing all the people in masks (and I was wearing a mask and gloves) all of sudden hit me as so surreal...like a horror movie. I came back to my apartment and while trying to bring my groceries in the door slammed the door on my fingers. I never realized what a heavy door it was. I just burst out crying and ran to the sink to run cold water over my fingers. I was sobbing. And I am NOT a crier. I think I was just sobbing about EVERYTHING. You know, all the stress of the situation. And I was already pretty stressed out before Covid 19. I have extremely difficult money problems.

The world does feel surreal, like we are living in a movie.

I've also noticed a lot of masks and gloves too. Not all people are wearing them where I am, probably because it isn't the law. I do not wear them. Masks have a smell that I find disgusting and they tend to fog up my glasses, so I have been avoiding them. All I have been doing is washing my hands a lot more often and being careful about things I touch. I'm also making sure not to touch my face out in public.

How is your hand?

Money is a concern for me as well. Do you have enough to get by? I hope that is okay to ask. If not, ignore it.

I fear losing my job. I've been laid off until further notice. I don't want to lose my job, because I gave up so much to get it. This terrifies me.

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I decided to go out more...but maybe away from people wearing masks and gloves. We have a lot of hiking areas where I live and our gov did not close any parks because where I live outdoor hiking is very important to people.

All the parks have been closed here, even the walking trails. I try to go out everyday for a walk around the neighborhood. Sometimes I am out for 3 hours. It seems to help my mood. Have you gone on a walk yet?

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Yesterday I realized I am a lot more stressed and depressed than I realized.

This lockdown feels so much more stressful than life prior to it.

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I started to listen to a lot more music and that has helped. Music calms me. I have also been sleeping more. Usually I sleep 8 hours like clockwork. Last night I slept 12 hours. I decided not to worry about it.

What I DON'T do is use any unhealthy coping means such as alcohol or drugs, or junk food. I also stopped watching detective shows and you know, scary shows, in general, because they were negatively affecting me. Now I watch silly, funny stuff only.

My outlet has been Star Trek. I always seem to turn to it when I am dealing with stress and illness. It takes me away from life and my head. I learn so much about life from Data.

Mr. Bean and the Blues Brothers help a lot too.

I don't watch the news at all. I can't deal with the negativity. E.g., The constant death updates

Drinking makes depression worse, so I avoid it.